Anna couldn’t shake off the sense of sadness and loss that surrounded her. On the surface she appeared fine, if a little thin nowadays. Her friends accepted her word when she said she was okay. They looked closely at her to see if it was the truth but she put on a brave smile and they had no choice but to believe her.
Inside though, was a physical pain in the centre of her chest that would sometimes make her catch her breath. She couldn’t muster up enthusiasm for her work. All she wanted to do was sleep. Everywhere she looked there was darkness. She used to have a future but now she couldn’t see one. When Terry left he had taken her future with him. She had no idea what to do next and she didn’t really know how to care.
Anna believed so strongly in the future she had created in her mind, she wasn’t ready to let it go. She couldn’t see past it because to her it had been real; so real she had lived her life as if it had already been created in her physical world. Whilst the truth was, now that Terry had gone, that particular version of her future was no longer possible she had no way to accept it. In her mind she had lost everything; her past, her present and her future. She had lived so long in the belief she had created that her grasp on reality was lost in the mist of her imaginings. Now she had no idea how to face a world that was not her fantasy. The incongruence of it all left her reeling.
Having goals and desires is important. The problem arises when you focus so fully on your goal you forget to live your life in the present; when you are so attached to your dream you fail to see the beauty that surrounds you in the now. Neither the past nor the future exists in the present and therefore the only place you have any power is now. So if you have a goal, a desire for the future, then take an action every day that will bring you closer to it. But do not be so attached to your version of the outcome that you fail to see the opportunities that exist all around you. I once read a very poignant saying: ‘sometimes on the way to a dream you get lost and find a better one.’